Disciplinary Council – Take 2

About a week ago, the Stake President met with John to let him know that he had decided that he could recommend John for baptism.  The Stake President had already scheduled the disciplinary council for this past Sunday, February 28th. Thirteen months ago, I felt like this day would never arrive, and now it had.Read more

Repentance

John met with the stake president Tuesday night.  After meeting with each of us individually a few weeks ago, he now feels that it is time to recommend John for baptism.  This Sunday, John and I will meet with the disciplinary council.  It will be very different from the last time we met.  Instead ofRead more

FHE Conversation Twists

In the past, John and I would commit to having regular Family Home Evening.  We would have it once or twice, and then skip several months.  I am sure his addiction had nothing to do with this.  (Insert sarcasm.)  Now, we are really committed. Sunday is our night for the full-blown scripture, prayer, song, lesson,Read more

Blessings Come in Mysterious Ways

John was “let go” from his job two weeks ago.  It wasn’t a surprise, in fact, John had already started to look for employment elsewhere.  His boss was the type of boss that you only hear about.  He was demeaning, rude, hypocritical, I could go on and on, but I won’t.  This story isn’t aboutRead more

Excommunication . . . Merely a New Chapter

I have felt prompted to write about my husband’s excommunication from the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints for over a month now.  I have sat down several times, written a few sentences, deleted the post and walked away from the computer in frustration.  This is a taboo subject to many within the Church. Read more

Jill’s Baptism

I tried several times since Saturday to write about Jill’s baptism.  Each time I have gotten stuck and have focused too much on silly details.  Today I am writing with a prayer in my heart that what I write here will help someone else in a similar situation. For weeks prior to Jill’s baptism I rode aRead more

it will all be okay

I have been mad lately. M – A – D.  Mad. Mad that John can’t baptize Jill. Mad that he chose another path for so long. Mad that he has an addiction. Mad that my mother in law pressured me to know when the baptism date would be. Mad that I completely forgot to sendRead more

Thankful in My Circumstances

“Instead of being ‘thankful for things’, we focus on being ‘thankful in our circumstances’ whatever they may be.” – Deiter F. Uchtdorf It’s not always easy, some days are better than others, but I am trying to be thankful in my circumstances.  To see the tender mercies of the Lord as I go through this experienceRead more

. . . stay

If someone had told me a year ago that my husband was addicted to pornography and sex, I would have laughed in their face, and said, “Not my husband.  No way.  My husband is totally active, he’s served in several presidencies in the church and is currently the Elder’s Quorum President.  My husband and IRead more

Smiling on the Darkest of Days

John told me he was addicted to pornography late at night on January 7th, 2015.  The next morning I went through the motions of the morning routine.  John left for work.  Shortly after he left he texted and asked if I would be willing to see a therapist with him that morning.  I agreed.  John tried to go to work, butRead more