Last night I got upset at John over something really stupid.  I really don’t know what set me off, but I was mad about him not helping me when I needed him to even though I hadn’t asked him for help and he’s not a mind reader (seriously, my life would be easier if he couldRead more


John met with the stake president Tuesday night.  After meeting with each of us individually a few weeks ago, he now feels that it is time to recommend John for baptism.  This Sunday, John and I will meet with the disciplinary council.  It will be very different from the last time we met.  Instead ofRead more

A lie is a lie

I have been feeling off-kilter since the new year.  Maybe a little before.  I couldn’t put my finger on what it was, but something just seemed off. John’s been lying to me.  Or rather, just omitting things from me. Of course, it wasn’t anything big… just lying. {smirk} {Before I tell this, I will fullyRead more

FHE Conversation Twists

In the past, John and I would commit to having regular Family Home Evening.  We would have it once or twice, and then skip several months.  I am sure his addiction had nothing to do with this.  (Insert sarcasm.)  Now, we are really committed. Sunday is our night for the full-blown scripture, prayer, song, lesson,Read more

Jill’s Baptism

I tried several times since Saturday to write about Jill’s baptism.  Each time I have gotten stuck and have focused too much on silly details.  Today I am writing with a prayer in my heart that what I write here will help someone else in a similar situation. For weeks prior to Jill’s baptism I rode aRead more

it will all be okay

I have been mad lately. M – A – D.  Mad. Mad that John can’t baptize Jill. Mad that he chose another path for so long. Mad that he has an addiction. Mad that my mother in law pressured me to know when the baptism date would be. Mad that I completely forgot to sendRead more

Thankful in My Circumstances

“Instead of being ‘thankful for things’, we focus on being ‘thankful in our circumstances’ whatever they may be.” – Deiter F. Uchtdorf It’s not always easy, some days are better than others, but I am trying to be thankful in my circumstances.  To see the tender mercies of the Lord as I go through this experienceRead more

. . . stay

If someone had told me a year ago that my husband was addicted to pornography and sex, I would have laughed in their face, and said, “Not my husband.  No way.  My husband is totally active, he’s served in several presidencies in the church and is currently the Elder’s Quorum President.  My husband and IRead more