“Instead of being ‘thankful for things’, we focus on being ‘thankful in our circumstances’ whatever they may be.”
– Deiter F. Uchtdorf
It’s not always easy, some days are better than others, but I am trying to be thankful in my circumstances. To see the tender mercies of the Lord as I go through this experience that I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. For whatever reason, this is something that I need to pass through.
I am thankful that…
John answered every question I had when he disclosed to me. It tore me open, ripped me apart, left me shattered, but now I can heal.
we listened to the therapist and waited at least 90 days to be sexually intimate. It gave us both time to heal and to connect in a nonphysical way.
John disclosed everything to our bishop and stake president within days of telling me.
my husband has been excommunicated from the Church. It is a terrible thing, but has ended up being a blessing. I will write more about that another day.
my little guardian angel was born into our home 9 months earlier.
for text messages from John’s brother letting me know he is praying for me and our family.
I can feel my angels on the other side helping me move forward.
on my darkest day my oldest sone wrapped his arms around me and said, “Mom, you look like you need a hug.”
I am learning things I never knew about myself.
I can drive by a massage place and not get the heebie jeebies.
the Relief Society President brought me dinner and a hug.
I am seeing the changes I need to make in myself.
my sister checks in on me.
I am getting to know the real John.
I am learning to love deeply.
my neighbor unexpectedly dropped by to bring me breakfast.
I have personally experienced the Atonement’s power to take away my sorrow, hurt, pain, and suffering.
the scriptures have taken on a whole new light. My understanding of them has increased tremendously.
my daughter draws and colors beautiful notes for me and leaves them on my pillow.
I am learning to communicate more effectively, not only with John, but with everyone around me.
my Visiting Teacher comes every month with a wonderful message.
my daughter didn’t question when we told her she will be baptized and confirmed by her grandpas.
for the times I have been able to “forget”.
the pain is subsiding. The wound is healing.
for the love I have felt from Heavenly Father.
for the peace the Gospel provides me.
that I am growing stronger.
that despite everything else that is going on, I can feel peace in the storm.