Realization

Last night I got upset at John over something really stupid.  I really don’t know what set me off, but I was mad about him not helping me when I needed him to even though I hadn’t asked him for help and he’s not a mind reader (seriously, my life would be easier if he couldRead more

Trauma Bites

Hello friends.  So much has happened since I posted last.  John was rebaptized and life has been crazy ever since.  It’s been about 4 months since his baptism.  I had this false feeling that everything would be a-okay and we would move on and “live happily ever after”.  That has not been the case.  IfRead more

Disciplinary Council – Take 2

About a week ago, the Stake President met with John to let him know that he had decided that he could recommend John for baptism.  The Stake President had already scheduled the disciplinary council for this past Sunday, February 28th. Thirteen months ago, I felt like this day would never arrive, and now it had.Read more

Repentance

John met with the stake president Tuesday night.  After meeting with each of us individually a few weeks ago, he now feels that it is time to recommend John for baptism.  This Sunday, John and I will meet with the disciplinary council.  It will be very different from the last time we met.  Instead ofRead more

A lie is a lie

I have been feeling off-kilter since the new year.  Maybe a little before.  I couldn’t put my finger on what it was, but something just seemed off. John’s been lying to me.  Or rather, just omitting things from me. Of course, it wasn’t anything big… just lying. {smirk} {Before I tell this, I will fullyRead more

FHE Conversation Twists

In the past, John and I would commit to having regular Family Home Evening.  We would have it once or twice, and then skip several months.  I am sure his addiction had nothing to do with this.  (Insert sarcasm.)  Now, we are really committed. Sunday is our night for the full-blown scripture, prayer, song, lesson,Read more

Blessings Come in Mysterious Ways

John was “let go” from his job two weeks ago.  It wasn’t a surprise, in fact, John had already started to look for employment elsewhere.  His boss was the type of boss that you only hear about.  He was demeaning, rude, hypocritical, I could go on and on, but I won’t.  This story isn’t aboutRead more

Excommunication . . . Merely a New Chapter

I have felt prompted to write about my husband’s excommunication from the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints for over a month now.  I have sat down several times, written a few sentences, deleted the post and walked away from the computer in frustration.  This is a taboo subject to many within the Church. Read more

Jill’s Baptism

I tried several times since Saturday to write about Jill’s baptism.  Each time I have gotten stuck and have focused too much on silly details.  Today I am writing with a prayer in my heart that what I write here will help someone else in a similar situation. For weeks prior to Jill’s baptism I rode aRead more

it will all be okay

I have been mad lately. M – A – D.  Mad. Mad that John can’t baptize Jill. Mad that he chose another path for so long. Mad that he has an addiction. Mad that my mother in law pressured me to know when the baptism date would be. Mad that I completely forgot to sendRead more